Maybe one day I'll tell you all about the twelve lives I've lived since we ventured to the earth's edge back in May and the profound effect Montauk has on a person's heart and soul (that Eternal Sunshine isn't too far off from). Maybe I'll show you the watercolor ink paintings that took over my sketchbook this summer, or the blueprints for the new book I'm working on. Maybe I'll tell you some of the stand-up jokes I've been writing since September or about how meditating saved me and my year from exploding. Maybe I won't because I'm preoccupied with living a life centered on nervous system regulation, bountiful creativity, rest and wild, life-changing decisions that defy everything I've ever planned for, everything I was once confident my life was leading to. I'm learning to create a supportive ecosystem within myself that champions the rejuvenating enjoyment of my artmaking process, without the stifling expectations of regimented success. I've also come to understand that not everyone is meant to ride the elevator up with me, and that while self-preservation is difficult - it is always worth it. Hard truths never come easy.
Turning my life inside out has caused some major identity crises, though it's also helped me find my way back to my resilience and my values. My decision to leave Substack was simple - major blogs, newsletter vehicles and social media apps thrive because they perpetuate the institution of scarcity: people won't find you unless you are plugged into their platforms. This simply is not true, and I only realized this after I shifted my attitude from one of scarcity to abundance. There are numerous ways people can find and connect with me and my work, both in real life and online. I have to trust the process and remain confident that if someone is meant to find my art and music, they will as they have. I've spoken with wonderful people via contact page and because of this blog, so I want to invest more in this infrastructure and bring all blogging in house. Also you can still leave comments, by scrolling all the way to the bottom :D
Everyone who received my Substack will be added to a newsletter that I'll start to send out when things settle down a bit, linking to my blog posts and providing updates on where you can catch my work. Until then, enjoy these photos of one of the most healing hikes I've ever been on:
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